Her

I don't like writing about people, but I kinda felt I have to write this.

I know you'll never read it, but I don't really care.

You might think I just got over the whole thing, but I didn't.. we were close enough to guarantee that we'll never forget about each other. I don't know if you still care, I don't. But I can honestly say that I think about you every single day, sometimes I even wish we're still friends. but I just push these thoughts away. I don't hate you, when I told you that I forgave you I didn't lie.. why would I? But when you said that you truly believe that nothing will separate us, I lied.. I said I feel the same while I didn't... sorry for that. At that moment I couldn't imagine my life without you. But now I can, it's easier than I though. Less drama & less tears. You wanna know why did I end our friendship? it's not because I hated you, as I said I DID forgive you, it's because I didn't wanna relive the whole thing again. I didn't wan't you to lie.

I admit it, I've been watching you for a long time after that happened. I don't do that anymore, because I don't know if I'll be able to stop myself from talking to you again.

I don't hold a grudge towards anyone, really. I was mad at the beginning, because you were the last person I thought'd ever do that. I've noticed you reveled a lot of things after, I won't ask why. I don't wanna know  .

I just want you to know. I've spent some of the most amazing days of my life with you. Even if we don't mean the same to each other anymore, that won't ruin the memories.

Thank you, for teaching me how to put boundaries, for teaching me that leaving things on the side of the road is easier than it seems. Thank you for all the amazing times, for all the laughs we laughed together & for all the tears we shed together.