[ The Actress ]

The look on her face was hard to explain. She repeated the same words for the eighteenth time, and stopped caring if she was doing the scene right or not. It was hard to tell how tired she was of acting sad.. or even happy. I wouldn't say she was that kind of person who'd easily get bored, but she had enough of getting judged on how good she pretends to be someone else! She wanted to be herself.. she wanted to stop worrying about how she looks like or if anyone will recognize her in a foreign country, or even which paparazzi will take the first picture of her when she takes one step out of her house. She wanted to be ignored or at least treated like a normal person . She wanted real friends and not just attention seekers. And yes, she did wish on every shooting star to be free. Because she wanted to be known for her real self and not just as [The Actress] ..,


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A forest tale ..,

She was sitting under a huge tree in a very quiet forest, and when it started raining the trees came back to life ! she didn't think it was the right time to think of the past nor the future. Just living the moment was enough itself. she was lost in the moment .. she was safe.. she thought that some people are pathetic, literally pathetic for killing such a peaceful place.. it was so beautiful, so calm, so green. she heard a whisper "stay here dear". The forest talked to her! she must be dreaming, but surprisingly she didn't shake at all! she wasn't afraid, she felt home. She decided that she doesn't want to wake up ever again - if it was a choice - . she was happy 'cuz she finally found where she wanted to spend eternity. Well, it's just another choice she made, if the forest will die, she'll go along with it. It was a part of her now, or she's a part of it to be correct. She was as far from herself as she could ever be. She was a free spirit wandering in this lonely forest, not really looking for herself, but for the right place to settle down in with the new part of her. It was an endless forest, it was hers! This is all what her dreams are made of.. this will never fade.. this was good enough for her. She counted the countless colors around, she even caught a rainbow and pushed her black and white life away for good. For the first time she didn't care that she was alone, that it was getting dark or that it was too quiet. This is what she was going to live for what ever it takes. No one was going to wait and watch to take advantage of her weakness, nor was anyone going to watch for her either. But that was ok 'cuz the forest was going to watch out for her, she believed in that. Suddenly, she felt leaves falling over her face, she open her eyes and real life hit her. She stood up slowly, looked around and then walk away with no desire to leave at all. She remembered a soft voice that echoed in her head "Stay here dear", so she smiled and said "I'll be back, all the time, for me .. this is home!" then continued walking.


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